No love please rate 1-10?

i have never truly experienced love. Until now i thought i was experiencing love but that was just a illusion i thought she had feelings for me and i know that i had feelings for her. We were always together but yet so apart. So i finally asked her if she had feelings for me and in my ignorance i created a false hope to make me think that she had feelings for me.I was declined by her.At first i didn't feel any pain toward her decline but then those days after this event i started to feel pain. I kept thinking about her and only her. Now i am even more somber then before i rarely talk to her now and that makes me feel more alone then how i was in the past i thought she was the right one but i wasn't her right one. Now i am destitute of friendship and love. But there is still 1 more....