I'm happy when i see a fat man because I know they are not going to be competition for getting girls?

At the same time I feel this is a dark and mean thought and I am not a mean person. I am curious if any other guys have had the same thought. Also, I am thrilled to see men who are cue ball balled for the same reason as above. Sometimes I hope that there were will be no cure for baldness so that these men will stay bald. Again, I feel really guilty for having these thoughts but I am wondering if I am the only one.